Andy's Weblog

Thursday July 29th, 2004
Feeling : Extremely Tired

I really need to get more sleep!

Due to the upgrades I've done this week, my sleep has been somewhat erratic. The NetWare 5 to 6 upgrade went ahead on Tuesday evening. Everything went smoothly, up until the raid controller deactivated itself before the end of the install and the server had to be restarted. Amazingly, it didn't seem to cause any problems at all and the upgrade completed without any major problems.

Only slight hiccup was that all the users home directory environment variables had been wiped. Luckily there are only about 60 accounts in this part of the tree so it wasn't a major disaster. Need to figure out what causes it though, I have a few more of these to do and don't want to have to go and replace this setting on every account.

The morning after the upgrade, I turned up had no user poblems at all so I was able to escape just after lunch. I got home after a brief visit to the bar and promptly fell asleep on the sofa, which is probably why I couldn't sleep last night.

After laying awake for a couple of hours, I decided to switch on the TV for a while. Not a good idea as I ended up watching the Phillies/Marlins baseball game on ESPN and staying awake for the end of it (about 4:15am) so I've had a total of about 90mins sleep last night and 3 hours yesterday afternoon...probably why I feel like shit today. I just hope ESPN decide to show the Cubbies game on Sunday, would be nice to Greg Maddux make his 300th career win live rather than from tape...that's if he makes it on Sunday :)

 
Posted at 01:16 PM
Monday July 26th, 2004
Feeling : Tired

Well, I'm feeling a bit less depressed than the last time I wrote something here. The feelings are still there, and given that its been almost 3 years since it happened, I'm starting to think that these feelings are going to be something I'll always have to live with. Sometimes are just worse than others...

So what else has been happening?

Other than work, not much really. I haven't really been out and about much and my garden still needs tidying....I will get around to it one day.

On the work front, I have a site upgrade from Netware 5 to Netware 6 and a second server to add. Once that's done, data replication will be set up using r-sync to give a poor mans fault tolerant solution. I'm hoping the upgrade goes well, in testing I encountered a few problems using the SP4 overlay cd, so I'm going to go with SP3 and a few post SP3 service packs. I'll let you know how it goes...

On the reading front, I've just started the fifth Harry Potter book. I'm not overly impressed with it so far. I'm just hoping it gets better, its an awfully long book to be this slow all the way through...

 
Posted at 09:52 PM
Wednesday July 21st, 2004
Feeling : Alone

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart.

Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love -- well, you haven't lived a life at all.

You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

The quote above is taken from the film 'Meet Joe Black'. So why am I quoting it here? Well, mainly because I lost something and every now and again I get depressed and think back to what I had...now is one of those times. I once felt like this about someone and through my own stupidity I lost them.

It's kind of hard to explain what its like unless you've actually felt it but I now know that person is someone I can't live without....but I'm still alive, well I'm alive, but not really living. There is something missing that I know will never be able to be replaced, a hole that cannot be filled and a part of me that was lost along with her...

Time to sleep I think, hopefully next time something a[pears here it'll be slightly less depressing...
Posted at 11:46 PM